Hey y’all!
My goodness it has been a LONG time since I've written
anything. For a while, I wasn't sure what to write after the dress party. But a
few weeks ago, I really felt a tug on my heart to put an end to this
chapter of my life. Not that I haven’t already, but I feel that it’s time to
tie up the last few strings and close the final chapters of the divorce so that
I can move forward to make room for more.
And please read my words for exactly what they are. It is
time to write a final blog post to close out the divorce story
and throw out some old pictures and cards to simply make more room in my
heart ... and in my closet too!
The good Lord has been so sweet to gently give healing,
forgiveness and strength to my heart. As much as I wish it had come fast and instantaneously,
I can’t say I would go back and change anything in the last three years. Every
ounce of it has been an opportunity to learn and grow.
So, to make room for more ... more what? That’s a
great question. We'll just have to see! God is teaching me about His great love
in a new way. I am learning to allow God to fill the empty spaces in my heart
with His love, so that one day I’ll be ready to share that love completely.
I know that last sentence is a loaded one, but what does
it mean? Here are a few answers:
Am I over the divorce? Yes. Will I ever forget it?
No. Have I grown from it? Yes. Would I change the way it happened?
No. I wish I could find the words to describe the growth and maturity this set
of circumstances has brought. It completely changed my life and for the better.
Through the hurt and pain, so much positive has come from it and I’m ready to
live some more and love some more.
So with that, I’ll tell you how everything ended … just
fine.
My ex-husband and I finally settled everything early into
that next year after the dress party. I don’t think it was the way that either
of us really wanted things to settle, but it was done. And I think
we were both grateful the parley was finally over.
The year 2012 brought a fresh, new friendship and love.
Someone came into my life for a reason and truly at the perfect season of life.
I learned how to love and be loved. And even after a difficult
breakup, God has been so sweet to allow a continued, sincere friendship that only
the King himself could design. I am very thankful to have had that life and
love experience.
Into 2013, there's been more growing and learning. I have
learned more about dating and relationships than anything ... and more so,
dating as a single, Christian woman. I'm sure I'll blog about it
later, but let me tell you, it's been challenging! I've gotten it right (once
or twice!), but definitely gotten it wrong and am learning a lot! Last year,
I've also had the opportunity to lead a Bible study (which is pretty awesome!),
volunteer with the Junior League, enjoy some fun trips and make a ton of great
memories with the world's best friends and family.
So what's for 2014? A ten-year high school reunion,
that's for sure! Wow. More leading, more volunteering, enjoying family and
friends, working, traveling, staying active and simply enjoying the now.
So with that, I cannot wait to continue Her Little White
Dress stories! This little blog is getting a makeover real soon and I
am excited to do some more writing!
Love y'all so!!!
xoxo
Jes
“This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The
old life is gone; a new life has begun!” 2 Corinthians 5:17
“I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.” Philippians 3:14
“And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I
will take out your stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart.”
Ezekiel 36:26